By Jerome Martin
June 08, 2011 | The Malaysian Insider
JUNE 8 — Nobody should feel obliged to stay or leave, wherever one might be.
Be it your birthplace, country of residence or somewhere you’re just passing through, no one should be compelled to be someplace s/he’d rather not be.
Which is why this entire business of our government begging Malaysians around the world to return disturbs me. You can ask someone to loan you 50 bucks as a favour. You can’t ask them to uproot, change their life plans and come home just to render some kind of “national service.”
People want different things in life and most of it is completely valid — aside from say serial murder and rape. The end result is some kind of meaning.
For some, it means partying all night every night and banging a different chick each day. For some, it’s sheer buying power and the ability to drop a million dollars without batting an eyelid.
And these are not so different from someone who wants to help the poor, someone who wants to write a great novel or someone who wants to work in government and make sure that the people’s money is well spent.
In short, life should be its own affirmation. What you do should make you happy about being you.
Still, many spend their lives seeking what is real. Something that has meaning to their lives.
Some hold to ideas of going some place where they get what they deserve, or quality of life is better, or there is no discrimination — if such a place could truly be said to exist. Does this provide meaning? Does one fulfil a purpose this way?
I guess it is a means to an end. Maybe they will be able to cure cancer or make advances in renewable energy in places with the right industrial ecology.
For those who stay, there is this notion of Malaysia being “home.”
But what does a home mean? Security? Familiarity? A sense of belonging? Those do not provide any meaning. They do not fulfill a purpose.
I call Malaysia home too. I spend a lot of time wondering why. Not why it’s home. But why I call it home.
Then again, I’m the sort of guy who is retarded by a sense of moral virtue. Framed within the context of doing something good, impactful and positive, rather than just nihilistic pleasure, cracks start to form around my notions of being a rock star.
Between being the world’s greatest… football manager, say, and Malaysia’s No. 1 football supporter, I’d pick the latter. Not much impact, but it involves people I give a damn about.
I know what you’re going to ask: “Why do I give a damn about them?”
Maybe because I’ve done something to make them who they are and vice versa. In a minute way, I’ve made Malaysia the way it is, and it’s made me the way I am.
And I just can’t run away from that. I can’t even try.
“Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?” — Pink Floyd, Wish You Were Here